12 days ago I was posting about wanting to make The Coworker my boyfriend. A lot can apparently change in 12 days.
I’m far from a moron when it comes to knowing how someone feels about me. Guys are pretty obvious when they like you and also pretty obvious when they don’t. The Coworker has gone from texting me often to me having to initiate all conversations. Along with me having to initiate any time we hang out. I had mostly been the initiator with hanging out anyway, but the texting was always mutual. Not anymore.
I am not one to sit back and let things bother me, and he and I have talked about some pretty personal and honest stuff, so I texted him yesterday afternoon with my concern. I mentioned noticing I was doing all the initiating and posed two thoughts to him…. Either he wasn’t typically an initiator and I should keep doing it… Or he was losing interest and I should back off.
The result? For the first time since we met 5 months ago, he didn’t reply. He’s been having issues with his phone lately, so there was a possibility of a missed message, but deep down I knew. It was the end. To top it off, today at work he kept coming online and immediately going offline on our work instant messenger program when generally he’s always online. Coward. Today I texted once more in a “benefit of the doubt” type thing and just asked if he got my text from yesterday. No reply.
I’m not even upset or mad… It’s just stupid and silly! I pretty much gave him an out, so man up and just say it. Does he think that ignoring me doesn’t say the exact same thing…. In a far less mature way? Does he not realize that we’re going to keep seeing each other at work and he’s making it way more awkward than it needs to be?
Maybe he thinks I’m going to freak on him if he says it so he’s avoiding it? I’ve heard his last girlfriend was a little unhinged when they broke up (hear that from a friend of hers, not him). So it’s over obviously, but I’m mature enough to have things end and not be a crazy psycho about it. Heck, we only dated for two months. And I don’t want things to be weird at work. There’s not point. So I’ll text him one more time at some point and tell him it’s silly that he’s ignoring me and that I’m not going to freak out on him because things are ending. I’ll still say hi to him at work and it doesn’t need to be awkward.
I liked him a lot, but it sure is a lot easier to get over something ending when you’ve felt it happening for almost two weeks. Or maybe deep down I knew it wasn’t meant to be anyway? Oh well.
On to the next.
EDIT: He finally wrote back and said he “didn’t know how to answer my question”. I said that if he had to think about it, that was pretty much an answer right there. He said he had to “work out where his head is at” and again, if he has to think about whether he likes me or not, he probably doesn’t. I left it at that and said I’d leave him alone and he knew where to find me if he wanted to talk. I also said that if I see him in the halls at work, I’m going to say Hi because no need for awkwardness. He agreed. So at least there’s that…